What an odd title, hey?
Especially considering it's very apparent that it's still here and I have clearly typed this post up.
Those factors may be obvious to the occasional visitor, but if you scroll back through my posts over the past year or so, you'll notice that there's been a significant reduction in the frequency of my posts, and that my inane musings are few and far between.
Well, I'm not sure really.
It might be that my son is getting older, and with him at the age of seven years old I don't want to type anything that could cause him embarrassment? However, there have always been very few humiliations or daft stories as I've always been very aware of my role as a teacher in my small hometown.
So it's not that.
It could be that I received some fairly aggressive spam comments around two years ago, and as they turned out to be from someone very close to me, it's knocked my confidence? If a member of my own family could do that anonymously, then what could others do? But then as they were centred on the commercial aspect of my site, not my everyday life, it shouldn't be that reason.
The possibility is there that, as I approach my sixth anniversary of starting this blog, I've just run out of things to say about my little suburban life, or that I am back to my fledgling blogger doubts; that no-one is interested. When I started blogging in 2010 there were very few parent blogs out there, but now everywhere you turn there's a new wave of enthusiasm from excited bloggers. That's wonderful and I wish them the success that they're looking for, but it does make it rather difficult to snare a reader.
Back then my blog used to be a digital diary, an online place to record the everyday with my son and husband. I did find myself pressured into going out to places in order to create a blog post though. Initially I thought this was a good thing as it meant that we were exploring new areas and finding little gems to share with my readers.
But good Lord it gets tiring after a while!
Producing the craft posts to try and get Pinterest views, visiting new places to write about outdoor play and family days out, taking a photograph at every opportunity, editing and collating the photos or videos, writing the post, publishing and advertising it. It can be all consuming and I felt very much like I was on a hamster wheel that was getting faster and faster; I wanted off!
Only problem is now that I can't work out how to get back on again, and do I have anything of worth to say anyway?