A well-earned rest during our afternoon of gardening!
It's a week since I decided that I wasn't going to be going Project 365 and it has been a tumultuous week. It's been fabulous not having to stress about taking a photo every day, but my hands feel empty and my fingers twitchy; it's been a very mixed bag of emotions over the past seven days.
We've been to the park and I played with The Boy, pushing him on the zipwire, then sitting on the bench and watching him in the playground. I enjoyed watching him, not worrying about whether the light was in the right position for a photo or cajoling him into doing that thing again so I could snap it. Earlier today I watched him sieving the soil in the vegetable patch and asked my husband for his phone so I could take a photo, then I remembered that I didn't have to. It was liberating.
But at the same time, I don't like it. This doesn't feel right to me, not snapping away. Especially when I look back at my old 365 photos and remember all the everyday moments that I've captured, all the expressions on his face and the everchanging mannerisms. That's why I did the photography project for so long, and I needed a break to remind me of that, albeit only a two week hiatus.
So I've decided that I will be back, once my dad's operation and my sister's radiotherapy is done. Once the school inspection has passed. Once I'm not quite so damned stressed all the time. Fortunately the lovely Facebook 365 group wouldn't accept that I wasn't going to be doing it any more and have decided that they will temporarily caretake it for me until the first day of the Summer holidays (if I last that long!), I'm very grateful to have such lovely blogging friends.
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